TWO COULD BECOME FOUR

Are you still willing to accept siblings?  “YES, YES, WE ARE!  JUST LET US BRING THEM HOME SOON, PLEASE!!!!!!

     We still do not have our referral information, but we have agreed to accept two children.  Again, we are not 100% certain, but let me just share how the convo went down with the agency during our referral interview. “Listen, we really need to know for sure if we’re getting two kids, for financial purposes.”  She replied, “My job is to get these kids out of this orphanage as soon as possible, so I would be insane to NOT give you two if that’s how many you are willing to accept.”  So there it is.  And my heart grew again, leaving a little more empty space. 

     The referral interview lasted more than an hour and resulted in a lot of changes to our original plan.  To make a long story short, we went from expecting one child, 0-3, to two kids, 0-7.  Typically, our agency doesn’t recommend interrupting birth order, but we worked it out due to the dynamics and personalities of our family and the kids we will be adopting.  In other words, there’s a chance now that Elijah’s little word will not be totally rocked by the addition of two babies younger than him.  And we will be able to fill that gap between Kynady and Elijah, maybe.  Of course nothing is certain until we have officially accepted our referral, but we’re open to whatever God has planned.  As a result, two could become four, and we’re ready.  

     To give you a further update, our paperwork is still waiting signatures in IBESR (Haitian Social Services), but things are moving.  We have joined a Facebook group with others adopting from Haiti, and we rejoice every time a child comes home and every time a family moves from one step to the next because that means our file is moving as well. 

     This wait is so hard.  It has been filled with so many hills and valleys.  There are times when I get so exhausted from worrying and thinking about it that I have to release it to God.  It builds and builds and builds, and then I am able to let it go.   And then the process starts all over again.  I can’t explain the emptiness and the constant battles within, but I will tell you that this process is making me stronger.  Isaiah 40:29-31 says, “He gives strength to the weary and strengthens the powerless.  Youth may faint and grow weary, and young men stumble and fall, but those who trust in the Lord will renew their strength; they will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary; they will walk and not faint.”  I have never felt so powerless in all my life, yet I have never felt the power of God so strongly.  I have never trusted God so faithfully.  Thank you, Lord, for your blessings and your sovereignty.  Wrap your arms around our children.  Give them peace and let them know somehow that we are coming for them.  If it’s your will, Lord, move our paperwork through swiftly.  Thank you Lord, thank you for blessing us beyond measure.